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Mother/Daughter Journey


As a parent, I had to learn how to give my daughter back the power I took from her because of my own trauma.

Sometimes as parents we don't realize how much we take from our baby’s emotional well-being.

We don't mean to.

I guess it is part of the process as we are learning through this parenthood experience.

During this era of our Mother/Daughter journey, the tables have flipped in a way that even I can't sometimes process.

Motherhood has been such a beautiful experience. The joy of giving birth to another life that is a manifestation of you is one of the greatest gifts we were gifted from the Divine Creator.

My highs and lows as a parent taught me so many lessons in how to become a better human being.

Yet, my experience traveling in this realm produced a deficiency in me that resulted in me being a shitty mother.

When I take those self-reflection moments, I allow myself to get extremely vulnerable with myself. I take off the worldly mask so I can see myself for all that I am.

It's a complexed identity that I embrace and take accountability for.

There are moments when I play Devil's Advocate with myself. Trying to understand if my dark areas are a symptom of this human suffering?

Karma?

Or just a little bit of both?

I'm still waiting for God to give me the answers to these questions.

This Mother/Daughter journey is fruitful in all of its glory.

It is intense exchanges of:

Maturity

Immaturity

Joy

Laughter

Sadness

Tears

Anger

Beauty

Lies

Prayer

Faith

Power

Vitality

Courage

Humility

Grace

Ego

Comfort

Accountability

Character

Honor

Compassion

Empathy

Clarity

Freedom

w/ Ancestral Wisdom

I cheated myself into believing because I provided a lifestyle of stability and materialism. She was alright.

The foolishness we tell ourselves sometimes is bananas.

Reality slapped the delusion out of me when I was faced with my own poison that I contributed to giving her.

Check Ya Self, Sis!!...is what my spirit made me face.

I had to... We have transitioned from adolescent to early adult hood in our relationship.

This stage is teaching me to submit and mind my business.... (lol)

I don't like it.

I want to protect her from all evil eyes, tongues, personalities, and hands.

However, that behavior is binding. I refuse to hold my joy (my daughter) back from her birthright for greatness.

Our Mother/Daughter journey can now heal into magnitudes that I never was taught, nor did I know existed.

I am better equipped to be a greater counsel and Mother in this part of my life.

I trust that I raised her right. Along with the women who gracefully poured into her throughout the years.

This Mother/Daughter journey ain't easy.

I wouldn't trade it for nothing in the world.

--------We are still growing




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